fire

we are the hope. we are the dream. we are the fire. a heart in love…is a heart on fire. any picket fence you try to put around one will be burned down. i find shelter in the fact that i live in nothing but ash. are we not humans at all? or are we too human? there is no in between. is danger to be found in the days we have not lived? or the days that we have lived that have been forgotten. life isn’t the actual chess match. it is what comes before. it’s the decision to sit down and play the game. knowing you may win.. or you may lose. the unknown. how beautiful is not knowing what comes next. walking down a sidewalk and literally watching the moments and the world blossom around you. watching the seams slowly be undone… the walls slowly crumbling and falling down as the debris hits your beat up pair of shoes. the time, the dedication, the passion. unlike some, i can find appreciation in being pushed down. the view from below isn’t so bad. afterall, when i have my back to the ground i am handed a view of places that i hope to be someday. we are the fire. we are the beautiful. we are the lonely. we deny destiny because we can do it better ourselves. when others walk…we run. when others sleep… we dream. you can’t tie us down because we won’t sit still. you can’t wake us up because sleep is not a term we are familiar with. most importantly, you can’t stop us from changing the world around us…because we already have. if you are looking for us you won’t find us. people like us can’t be seen or heard. we can only be felt. we live inside of you. we’ve built highways in your veins and homes between your bones. we are the hope. we are the dream. we are the fire. 

-alexander michael

:(

today is a sad day. today is a sad day. today is a sad day.
my awesome cousin putra is moving to the UK for 2 and a half years.
He is awesome because he skates, he is "fixed", he has an A+++ music taste, he plays da drumz&da piano&da guitar, he loves photography, he wears nike dunks and vans, and he has an "OK" taste for fashion as in he sometimes wear plaid and shit and most of his clothes are topman etc.
  soooo two days ago around 11 pm he went to my house, We did nothing but chill.
we talked about (and laugh at) lots of stuff, downloaded a couple of shits, and played some retarded games. He went home at 2am and when he left, there's this weird feeling inside me, like fear of being left & forgotten.
 yesterday i went to his house, i went straight to his room--i could smell the fragrance of the room, i liked it. And so we started to do the same thing as the night before, he introduced me to  a lot of bands i didn't knew before, we had a great time. when i got home the feeling came back again but i decided to erase it by sleeping.
 earlier today i went to the airport to say "the last" goodbye. i was the first person he hugged, the hug was pretty nice, i didn't want to (ever) let go..and so i said "take care ya put" i held my tears, it was damn hard. and today i've been silently crying, not wanting to let people know. hurts.
 last year we actually spent our summer together in the USA, we had a blast with the rest of the homestay team #neverforget. and since that moment we got so much closer. things were going up and down, i actually fought with him because of this stupid bitch~moving on.
 you can't really realize how close you are with someone until that someone is gone, permanently or temporarily. and i'm facing it right now.
   good luck bro.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

                                                       Rian dawson - All Time Low

                                                        Sierra Kusterbeck - VersaEmerge

skinned

what the fuck are you talking about dinda?

to make it perfectly clear.

i dont know the future of fall out boy. its embarrassing to say one thing and then have the future dictate another. as far as i know fall out boy is on break. (no one wants to say the “h” word). as much as i dont have a solo project, i also cant predict that id ever play in fall out boy again. not due to personal relationships as much as a band we grew apart. in this statement id like to include there is the possibility that fob will play again with out me or i will be a part of it when everyone is on the same page. it is no ones fault and there is no animosity about the decision. i felt as fans you deserve to know. there is no singular reason for this. the side projects or bands are supported by all members of the band. i am the single biggest fan of fob and if this is our legacy than so be it. i am proud of it.
(feb 2nd) - pete wentz




^this. i've been talking about this. okay? this is the reason why i always cry everytime i see/here everything f.o.b related. to me they're my legends. thanks

gives me hope.

i dunno if this still exists but it made me feel better

a simple thank you..

to start this off… i’m going to be blunt and honest. i have no idea what is going on. i haven’t talked to any of the guys specifically on the matter. so for those of you who are reading this blog in hopes of an answer, or in hopes of getting more information..i am sorry to say that i am going to disappoint you.

i’m writing this blog to say that i support them no matter what. i realize people are going to tweet me and post “you are a brown noser” or “stop kissing so much ass”…but to be honest..i don’t care. (no pun intended) fall out boy is one of the few bands who have a had a significant impact on my life and as an artist. here is a picture of me and pete from five or so years ago. my brace face and all. the first time i ever crowd surfed was to “tell mick…” and i swear to god pete pointed at me as a floated across the crowd pointing back at him, screaming the words that he poured his heart, soul, and un-trimmed chest into writing. first time i got kicked out of a concert? fall out boy. i was singing along to “saturday” and accidentally punched a security guard in the jaw while throwing my fist up to a break in the bridge. fall out boy were a group of guys..just like us. some considered them underdogs..yet they took the world by storm. patrick has taught me that singers in this genre don’t just have to play three power chords and hit simple cheap notes when they sing. we can be soulful.. we can actually sing with a little bit of emotion. patrick has taught me so much about being myself as a singer, artist, and as a person..and that as long as i am honest with myself..people will follow.

i was just like a lot of you guys. i’d ditch school, camp out at the venue the morning of the shows, and stand outside in the cold waiting for the guys to come outside so i could nervously shake their hand and tell them that their music had changed my life. i knew that they probably got it three hundred times a day..but i didn’t mind. they always made me feel like it meant something to them. and to this day…i believe it did.

i have fall out boy to thank for almost everything i have. pete listening to me sing at a gym class heroes video shoot senior week during my finals. he was dressed up as elvis, but still found time to give a nerdy little vegas kids with braces a shot at playing a song or two on guitar. they invited me to come out on tour with them for a few days…where me and patrick ended up forming our song “bounce” and talking about hell boy comics. pete has also taught me not to take naked photos of myself…haha just kidding ;) i can still remember waking up at pete’s house to hemmingway attacking my face as if it was normandy, and pete laughing like an 8 year old as he filmed it on his old school video camera.

i apologize for getting so nostalgic on you…but i want you to know that i am right there with you guys. it has hit me hard like i’m sure it has all of you. here is what you have to think about though…

fall out boy will never be completely over.

i have enough memories to last me three lifetimes. they’ve put enough wind in my sails to push me around the world a dozen or so times. they won’t be forgotten. how many bands that you listen to were started because of fall out boy? or at least we’re inspired by their songs and sounds. fall out boy wasn’t just a band. it was a movement. it was the light between the clouds that showed that us kids can become something great. it was the fact the we can all change the world in our own ways. even if we all feel like underdogs sometimes. how can we be mad or upset with them when they have given us so much? i have heard some of patrick’s new stuff…and it is absolutely amazing. pete seems to be getting into something everyday that’s groundbreaking, new, and exciting. none of our boys are going anywhere. we need to be proud of them. i’m going to support them like they supported me. when i was lonely in my bedroom..i could put on my fall out boy cd and escape for a few minutes. have you guys seen how big little bronx is getting? isn’t he a beautiful little boy? how amazing is that for pete? they’re growing up just like we are…and they deserve a round of applause. a standing ovation. who knows what they’ll do in the future..but we all know what they have done in the past. no one can take fall out boy away from us…

not even them personally.

-alexander deleon


i cried reading this, but thank you for reminding me

aaand she scores!

...again. ;)
aaah i wish i can just snuggle up with him and make him feel better, which will never happen... i sound cheesy don't i HAHA shit. <- IGNORE

UWADBHW9UPFIOWEBFHWEUF

guize. the moment when shana freaked out on bbm, i immediatly ran to my living room and cried, i didn't know how to react..well i was obviously shocked but the most important thing about this is that FINALLY one of them knows what i feel (as you can see in my previous post about fall out boy). i may look surprised but in real life im shaking and my face is like..asdfghjkrdgjlwebgniouweklgjegjnsuoeg. okay maybe some of you right now are thinking who the hell is this trohman guy? is he THAT important to dinda's life?. the answer is :
he is the guitarist of Fall Out Boy for crying out loud and YES HE IS IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE THAT'S WHY I CRIED. i don't care if it wasn't pete who answered, i didn't hope too high for a reply from him though, secara dia udah celeb, i love them equally anywaysss :D . but man, Joe is a legend. FOB is one of the most succesful bands in the 2000s. sumpah gue pengen sujud sekarang yaaaampun td bokap lg liatin video sepeda gue ignore lgsg lari ngibrit gilagila msh freak out gapercaya a a a a a  aa  aa a a a.
and the other news is THE TROLL FACE ON TUMBLR IS FOLLOWING MY SECOND ACCOUNT. things went better than i expected today. I love you God.

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don't forget to pray for Indonesia kids! huge smile & tons of kisses from me.
goodnight

memories that fade like photographs.

 

amerricka!

JB stands for Jack Barakat. your argument is invalid.

uh so yeah i actually have  tons of pictures with them  but i don't feel like looking at them. it hurts d00d.

                                                              so anyways-------------------

3 months ago. ATL in jakarta. the day i felt alive. i don’t know what to say anymore honestly but i feel really really grateful. i miss them so much. 

and i miss the feeling, it felt…i don’t know i can’t describe it but it’s an amazing feeling. And thankyou ATL for playing FOB’s song in Jakarta-means so much to me,you don’t even know. Thankyou for letting me escape reality. I remembered how and why i didn’t stop smiling eventho people were crushing me, no wasn’t angry at all, in fact i laughed.

thanks mofos!

/\/\onster!

this, my friends...is (in my opinion) one of the best energy drinks in the world. i thought they didn't sell it here, but i found this in grandlucky, damn straight i was lucky.
but it's kinda tall and now my heart is pounding, too much energy i guess..

私は日本を欠場!!!

ハッピーサンデー！^^V

lebanese nose

HAHAHAH NAPSU YA GUE MELUKNYA... i hate my arm though it's like......big BIG

ohhh yes.

i bought this t-shirt about 3 years ago. and it's still as awesome as the owner the band.

keep calm and party on

the person who's typing this right now, you know nothing about her. She isn't who you think she is..

i've been through a lot lately, and I tend not to tell my feelings to anybody because they probably won't even care..maybe some of them will, but I'm not in the mood of letting my heart out at the moment. Some people just won't understand.

I give my friends advice, but some of them just ignore the words i said and keep whining..all my life I try to not do that to others. do you wanna know why? because it's fucking annoying. Isn't it obvious that people are trying to calm you down but you just keep on saying no? situations like that can make people feel annoyed and hate will grow. So when my friends do that my heart shouts "fuck you" but my head slowly whispers "let it go".

just a piece of advice : don't annoy people if you want attention/help.

xx

barakitty

live

your argument is pretty much invalid.

a little less 15 candles

It's day 9 in october which is my best best best friend in the world's birthday today!!!

her name is Shana Hardjono, her tumblr URL is voltagerunningthougherskin (open it, it's awesome!!) she lives somewhere in Jakarta, she loves going to concerts, and she just turned 15.

We knew each other from our friend Ayu..but turns out my dad was actually shana's dad's friend too! coincidence? i think it's faith though.

we knew each other for about 3 years but we feel like it's been ages because we've done  A LOT of crazy things together you don't even wanna know..trust me. We went to the united states together (homestay program) and it made us closer! it was damn awesome, we shopped a lot of things..and ate a lot of things too.

(+fake marilyn monroe) this was the past............

         hey there present!

she's addicted to 30 seconds to Mars so i decided to make a birthday card like this,

yay triad!

so yeah, i just wanna say happy birthday to the awesomest unstoppably crazy bitch that i love the most! LET'S GET WASTED?

believers never die day

to Fall Out Boy,

thank you. thank U for everything. i spent my life listening to your wonderful music - it fits perfectly to my life. I remembered when i was in the 4th grade, i was watching MTV and there was this FOB live in singapore ad (i lived in indonesia-i still do) i freaked out..after begging for weeks i finally went to singapore with my sister and dad just to watch the show, to be honest it was my first time watching a concert from the festival, i was scared..but damn when the show started, i didn’t stop jumping and dancing and singing a long till’ the end of the show. I felt so free and so FOB was one of the reason why I’m a concert junkie right now. Patrick, Joe, Pete, and Andy, you guys will always be in my heart no matter what. i don’t even know what to say anymore but if i did make a list of my favorite bands FOB will be on top. I trust you guys, I know you've been busy individually except Joe and Andy who has the same project..but I know you guys are coming back, sooner or later. And why am I saying this? because i'm a believer, and believers never die.

  "we're young & in love. Heart attacks waiting to happen"

   - f***k, bring me the horizon.

don't stop me

sucks to be us teenagers when sometimes everything is just limited. you can't do this you can't go there you cant' wear that you can't buy this you're on his side etc etc, does it feels like it makes your actual self blurry? because you can't be what you really are with these things disturbing you.
don't you just wanna be free, like 21-ish year old people - they might have to be more responsible and plus the maturity, but at least they're legal and has the rights to live alone. I'd like to be forever young at the age 24.

long live our life savers

i feel like R&B,hip hop kind of music are booming and they're just drowning rock 'n roll and punk rock kind of music. Calling all punk rock listeners, where are you? where are you?

We all have problems and music is one of the reasons why they're finally solved.. Just like Alex Gaskarth said, “We don’t give you any solutions neccesarily, but we definitely offer you a minute to escape.” So what i'm saying is they pretty much helped you with your lives right? now it's our time to save them, let's NOT let them fade away from our lives, we may still have their songs on our iPods but what about the gigs? 

have you been watching MTv lately? and did you see AltPress' tweet during the VMAs?

what i've been seeing on MTv are rappers and mainstream songs, AP was talking about this too just so you know.

92% of teenagers have turned to hip hop and pop.if you are part of the 8% that still listen to real music,copy and paste this message.dont let the spirit of rock die

stay young;die pretty

good evening___&____,

i might write this on "our" yearbook : our body will change - it will get older... but remember kids, you don't have a soul, but you are a soul and you have a body. May our souls be forever young.

triangles

august 28th, 2010.

i went to this tribute concert to pink floyd, “the power of pink floyd”. to be honest, i only know one song, which is the education thingy (yes i don’t even know the title). the purpose of me going to the concert was i really wanna get to know other genres of music other than the genres i like, respect their fans (you know how i react when i see my fav band(s) live), and to know the atmosphere..the vibe..the people and the music.
i was pretty amused—the lightning and the sound effects, they were incredibly spectacular, to be honest i was a bit bored due to my confused brain and i don’t really like the genre, it’s not that i didn’t respect them..i did, i clapped my hands, enjoyed the beat and stood up when they ended the show. it was amazing i swear. But it’s just that i can’t click to UK bands. remember, don’t ever force yourself to like something you don’t really like..but respect them