12/23/2010

fire


we are the hope. we are the dream. we are the fire. a heart in love…is a heart on fire. any picket fence you try to put around one will be burned down. i find shelter in the fact that i live in nothing but ash. are we not humans at all? or are we too human? there is no in between. is danger to be found in the days we have not lived? or the days that we have lived that have been forgotten. life isn’t the actual chess match. it is what comes before. it’s the decision to sit down and play the game. knowing you may win.. or you may lose. the unknown. how beautiful is not knowing what comes next. walking down a sidewalk and literally watching the moments and the world blossom around you. watching the seams slowly be undone… the walls slowly crumbling and falling down as the debris hits your beat up pair of shoes. the time, the dedication, the passion. unlike some, i can find appreciation in being pushed down. the view from below isn’t so bad. afterall, when i have my back to the ground i am handed a view of places that i hope to be someday. we are the fire. we are the beautiful. we are the lonely. we deny destiny because we can do it better ourselves. when others walk…we run. when others sleep… we dream. you can’t tie us down because we won’t sit still. you can’t wake us up because sleep is not a term we are familiar with. most importantly, you can’t stop us from changing the world around us…because we already have. if you are looking for us you won’t find us. people like us can’t be seen or heard. we can only be felt. we live inside of you. we’ve built highways in your veins and homes between your bones. we are the hope. we are the dream. we are the fire. 
-alexander michael

12/22/2010

:(

today is a sad day. today is a sad day. today is a sad day.
my awesome cousin putra is moving to the UK for 2 and a half years.
He is awesome because he skates, he is "fixed", he has an A+++ music taste, he plays da drumz&da piano&da guitar, he loves photography, he wears nike dunks and vans, and he has an "OK" taste for fashion as in he sometimes wear plaid and shit and most of his clothes are topman etc.
  soooo two days ago around 11 pm he went to my house, We did nothing but chill.
we talked about (and laugh at) lots of stuff, downloaded a couple of shits, and played some retarded games. He went home at 2am and when he left, there's this weird feeling inside me, like fear of being left & forgotten.
 yesterday i went to his house, i went straight to his room--i could smell the fragrance of the room, i liked it. And so we started to do the same thing as the night before, he introduced me to  a lot of bands i didn't knew before, we had a great time. when i got home the feeling came back again but i decided to erase it by sleeping.
 earlier today i went to the airport to say "the last" goodbye. i was the first person he hugged, the hug was pretty nice, i didn't want to (ever) let go..and so i said "take care ya put" i held my tears, it was damn hard. and today i've been silently crying, not wanting to let people know. hurts.
 last year we actually spent our summer together in the USA, we had a blast with the rest of the homestay team #neverforget. and since that moment we got so much closer. things were going up and down, i actually fought with him because of this stupid bitch~moving on.
 you can't really realize how close you are with someone until that someone is gone, permanently or temporarily. and i'm facing it right now.
   good luck bro.

12/18/2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

                                                       Rian dawson - All Time Low

                                                        Sierra Kusterbeck - VersaEmerge